just some info on what's going on with my account in the fut..
Added 2021-03-18 19:01:48 +0000 UTCjust some info on what's going on with my account in the future and some info on how I'm doing. you dont need to read this but I need to get it out of my head for my own sake, I feel like I need to explain a little I'm aware I havent been here over the past day, and i'm currently not on the ball with this account and it's been eating away at me, I'm so scared to come on sometimes cause i dont want to see how much I'm not addressing. I arent equipped to deal with this shit man, I have no clue what I'm doing half the time, my bad days cause 100 of messages and notifications to build up and then when I'm feeling okay I try and deal with it but it's never ending, then fact I havent done customs in almost 2 months means I've got a lot of people to get back to with requests and then thats going to be SO much to deal with in my head, I've got to sort out a new site and platform for all this shit and I'm about ready to loose it and snap. but when I snap I snap, like 6months minimum in hospital kinda loosing it and I cant fucking do that, I have to many things I need to do to allow myself tp fully meltdown, that usually means sleeping a lot and trying to take it a day at a time. so that's why sometimes I'm active asf and then other times you wont get anything off me for a few days, I shut myself out from everything so I don't push myself over the edge with my panics and thoughts
