My name is Pakuja it means glitter gold flower in Hmong. My ..
Added 2023-09-30 05:58:24 +0000 UTCMy name is Pakuja it means glitter gold flower in Hmong. My grandma is a shaman & she told me it was my heaven name as they proceed to rename me. I love flowers 💐 because in graduation 2013-2014 was the worst year of my life. Was f0rrced to stay a full year as 16 year senior turning 17. I beeegged to graduate early to go to college but counselor fo0rce me to stay. The end of the year when I walk on stage I met with family who give me flowers 💐 so many flowers. It last for 2 weeks and was beautiful 😻. I envy flowers because they don’t live long and they are only given on occasion and death. Aunts & Uncle who show support and helped me too. Saddest part is I give my grandpa flowers before he die and felt really sad that he never give the real love to his kids maybe half of them or most of them wouldn’t have been so messed up. Honestly didn’t really like how hard he was on them. Maybe 🤔 half of them would been a better person. They’re too old & self center to even change. I’m grateful for the other half who show me kindness. Like flowers 🌸 beauty doesn’t last long & it’s a gift from people who admire you. Saddest part is most people give many flowers when u dead. I’m happily glad I bought flower or be in sunflower field 🌸 before I die. I realized that life is short and even though I suffered so much. I know many people admire my beauty & did fight for me when everyone else treated me like dooodooo.. I hated Disney world, materialistic people who value things, money, & themselves. I love hellllo kitty because many people who thought of me give it to Me as gift 🎁 despite the tooorment of others there was many good things that cheered me on especially animals. Yes my eviil mother love to see me cry she took video & photo of it. I cry over Disney because it was too hot n not fun rides or never me333t those princess. It was boring. Realization my bullies & her loved to make me sad & depress it made them feel powerful even if good things happen to me they’re get mad .
