I deleted social networks. I gave myself half a year to hea..
Added 2022-09-14 13:15:15 +0000 UTCI deleted social networks. I gave myself half a year to heal myself and deal with debts. Today I feel like I gave up. I broke and will never be the same. Today was the first time I stopped during a workout and wanted to leave the gym. And never come back. I cried and my coach hugged me, supported me and did not let me leave, she did not allow me to give up. A very difficult period when I lose so many friends for no good reason throughout the year. I have experienced a lot of betrayal, a lot of pain and loneliness. It seemed to me that I was coping and I was on the path to a cure, but no. I lost the point of being strong and exercising. It feels like no one needs me and if I disappear no one will notice. I was left completely alone with 4 trainer dogs and big debts and with a family in Ukraine who needs my help but I was able to finish the workout I hope I will return to the gym and to a normal life
