Well today I learned that due to my mental disorders, weed e..
Added 2020-09-15 10:27:35 +0000 UTCWell today I learned that due to my mental disorders, weed edibles are a terrible idea. I got severe ptsd from it and I can’t even begin to explain how agonizingly terrifying that ptsd was. I got amnesia and could not remember what happened three seconds ago. I could not feel my legs. I was unable to speak because I could not translate my thoughts into words which was terrible when my roomate asked what was wrong and if I was okay or in serious pain and I couldn’t even explain what was wrong. I thought I was dreaming and about to talk to dead children who speak to me during sleep paralysis. If you’re wondering what my mental disorders are, they’re not medically diagnosed because I’m too worried it will discourage jobs from hiring me. I’ve dealt with schizophrenia for the past ten years but I’ve managed it by making severe life changes like not sleeping at night anymore. I also have narcolepsy which means I tend to over sleep and hallucinate auditable things. I’ve had sleep paralysis so bad that I feared I’d never return to my body ever again. I personally learned the hard way not to take edibles for pain from surgery. It was hell. It was all hell. I’m traumatized from it. I have been severely impacted mentally from what I’ve endured during sleep paralysis and being high was a huge trigger. Because lucid dreaming and sleep paralysis does feel like being so insanely high that you can’t operate your own smart phone. And when I go into sleep paralysis, I struggle desperately to escape it before I’m stuck inside of it for what feels like hours and hours and hours of opening and closing doors to try and exit the sleep paralysis world because if I am injured during my sleep paralysis, my schizophrenic brain will feel that make-believe pain very vividly. So if I hurt my self in a dream, I experience the actual pain. So the intense high gave me ptsd and I lost cognitive function to speak. Never again. Sorry. My brain gets high like this by itself and drags me through agonizing mental trauma on its own.
