Today has been a lot harder than I expected. You get so used..
Added 2022-05-26 22:50:57 +0000 UTCToday has been a lot harder than I expected. You get so used to a certain routine with a tiny creature, that you don't fully realize all the little things you will miss. I knew I would really miss her when I came back home to an empty house and I think that was what put me over the edge. Prior to that, it was small things like the way she used to rub her face all over the carpet with her tiny little butt in the air, getting in her morning scratches. Or the fact that she used to go behind me in the kitchen and clean any morsel of food or liquid off the floor. I am at peace because she was very old and very sick at the end, like BAD SICK, but I miss my sweet baby girl. Now I just want to bring her (ashes) home.where she belongs. 7 months sober today, though! Definitely happy about that, but I really wanted to drink today.
