OK SO I KNOW THIS ISNT LEWD BUT (I am super pumped about my ..

OK SO I KNOW THIS ISNT LEWD BUT (I am super pumped about my new your head in my lap POV for YT annnd...) idk... I am feeling really good because a lot of y'all came through with my little sale and I am feeling so loved and vulnerable soooo, I thought maybe I would just share / brain dump a little on here for the people that like to know what's going on in my world (and I know sometimes y'all can be nervous to talk to me so feel free to bring anything up as a topic to talk to me! I really do love talking to y'all and this really IS my only adult interaction lol.) SOOOO... yeah this is just going to kind of be like a stream of conscious diary-ish kind of flow (isn't it funny how I type like I talk in my videos...all running together and thoughts within thoughts lolol). So, I have been thinking a lot about the ASMR genre lately and it seems like there's an equally large group of people that watch / enjoy ASMR that do NOT get tingles, but like the content because it's oddly satisfying, relaxing, comforting, sexual reaction, etc. This is interesting to me because it makes me wonder how else ASMR will change. I started my YouTube channel in Dec of 2018 and even since then ASMR has changed a lot. I see fast and aggressive...less audio editing, louder ASMR being more on trend and popular. I don't find that kind of ASMR to be very tingly, but it is interesting. Like, people like the ASMR element, but don't necessarily want to be put to sleep. It just makes me wonder like what else...what type of thing...activity or trigger or something like totally different done faster or slower or with a specific intention could be classified as ASMR. Like anything can be ASMR when you look at it that way. I really want to figure out how to morph my own content and channel into either something that is more cozy or trendy...or IF I am lucky and can figure it out....cozy, trendy AND trendsetting lol. #manifesting My next two videos are shot in natural light and I think they are definitely more cozy. Maybe I need a big fluffy bean bag or something for some cozy ASMR. Like...what makes something cozy to you? (Mini rant...the war on cleavage on YT is insane...like I don't know how I will be able to produce content with cleavage because they surpress the video...this is definitely why people end up just doing ear eating stuff and making content elsewhere because YT only likes ASMR with ZERO adult themes. Just go to YouTube search and look up ASMR and filter by most popular in the last week and see for yourself.) I guess I am also feeling reflective now that it's November. I really want to look back at the year and have a plan in place for how I want to grow my content in all areas. There are SO many things I want to do, but I run out of time. This has mostly impacted my ability to stream and I LOVE STREAMING. Like, streaming is really the only other way I get a lot of real time interaction with people and I get to laugh and have fun like....I love it. But, I have so many things to do now that I can barely find the time to do it :( I have been thinking about making it a bonus 'for pleasure' task like if I get all the things done I need to do then I can stream and stretch on stream or 'habit stack' while still being a chatty Cathy lol. BUUUUT, I also want to do some new YouTube videos like the truth or dare things and yoga pose challenges...those are fun too because I can do XXX versions for here with them. SEE...this is how I end up having too many things to do and not enough time haha. ANYWAY.... this was a whole long rant. I have to go get some ASMR filming done and then hype myself up to try some of the new spicy ASMR ideas that I got. I am totallllly trying out some ASMR on my bed. I don't know why I haven't ever done this??!