Hi fans...as I'm sure you've noticed I've been less active h..

Hi fans...as I'm sure you've noticed I've been less active here lately. For one, I've been in a relationship for the past year and as much as I've enjoyed fucking around and finding out, it feels good to take that extra step in love. In previous relationships, whenever things got difficult, I'd run from them instead of face reality. I feel like it's time to accept my shortcomings and grow. I think often we gays would rather find happiness in our hole than our heart, it's a shortcut I'm guilty of. I love nothing more than to fuck my way through the phonebook, but I think it has become an unhealthy distraction. Sex was a way to make me feel good about myself, and I've allowed it rule my life. I don't expect you to understand as I'm sure you're here HORNY, and I appreciate that...THANK YOU! <3 But at the end of the day, there is a person behind every orifice and appendage and I have to be honest about who I am, because I don't want to perpetuate unhealthy patterns in others that I am guilty of myself. I hope I can offer more than physical lust to the world. So I've got to start. We deserve more. I'm still figuring out how I can incorporate sexuality into my life in a healthy and nurturing way, so this is not the end. I actually think being a sex machine is what I'm put on earth to do, but I can't let it destroy myself and also others. I will have become a devil, when my goal all along was to spread love. This is the opening of new doors, of more passion, of eroticism beyond the physical body. Of mindfucking. And hole opening in expensive ways. Let this be a gateway to greater intimacy with ourselves and others. My greatest goal is to open a retreat focused on bringing us closer to nature and each other. Picture a hot springs sunset on acid, forest nymphs and fairies and flowers, mushrooms and herbs, mountain vistas, ocean waves, yoga, music, and free expression and loving. Thanks to your generosity, I'm much closer to reaching my goals. I'll be seeking much help and creative contributors along the way. All are welcome! I'd love to hear from you all privately about your own sexual journey, how this makes you feel. I hope to continue to serve you all, and be served too. ;) I've begun a Masters program in Psychology and I will be offering bodywork and yoga sessions to private clients. If you want to see my bf and I sometime, we'll be in Berlin. I'll be pumping out more sexy videos and keeping things hot but not letting it control my life. I appreciate your contribution, your interest in what I've got to offer, and I promise to share more. Hopefully I get to connect with you soon! Much love, 9