Hi hi Here is something I thought I should share I’m so ner..
Added 2021-06-10 23:13:06 +0000 UTCHi hi
Here is something I thought I should share I’m so nervous to type this but here we go
I’m taking care of myself after experiencing a very hard heartbreaking move and then having a very unexpected miscarriage. I was not aware that I was pregnant and only about one month along but it’s been very draining and has left me feeling weak and empty and so very alone. I personally have never had the urge to be a mother at this point in my life on earth. There’s so much guilt and embarrassment I am feeling about causing so much stress in my body that I failed to be a home for a creature. On the 2nd of June I started feeling just awful followed by unusual ailments but I was dealing with so much I figured I was just running low. But over the next week realized something much more deep was happening and I was blocking out all the pain because of other issues that seemed more important and neglected to take care of myself. I have been very private in the past and have seen that it does little to heal me. I am grieving alone with the help of my sister and just want you to know to at although this is not the content you probably signed up for - my life is very dark and I want to extend thanks to everyone here showing me lite hearted things and keeping the support coming it just means so much. Over the next week I am supposed to focus on gaining about 12 pounds and relaxing I’ll be setting up my new place which I really love the energy is so sweet and I’m happy to be moving forward and staying open to possible positivity
