Omg this week has been therapeutic I took these photos whe..

Omg this week has been therapeutic I took these photos when I made that dramatic post talking about how ugly I’ve been feeling This summer was a huge bust guys and I was so disappointed in myself! I said I was going to go out and make this content, I told myself I would join dating sites and make content with people again, I would make friends and basically I screwed myself over Because I expected this unrealistic perfect summer, and when I started to not do the things I promised myself I would, I only had myself to blame Of course my page isn’t going to do well if I’m not, idk why I always assume that sharing my struggles will make me feel better, and don’t get me wrong, venting about how I feel does make me feel less alone sometimes, which is what I need But after over a month of loosing support, not just from people who had it for my page, but I lost the support that I had for myself My confidence went out the window, I placed all of my value on my image, and I believe if my image is doing well, so will my page I didn’t realize how toxic my own thoughts had gotten, I hadn’t been to therapy in a few months, and I had some relationships end that triggered some old trauma So I’ve been doing the work, I’ve been feeding my brain with positive and kind words, about me and the world and the people around me And most importantly I stopped putting pressure on myself to do anything, i completely stopped doing what I thought would be good for me so I could listen to my heart again I want to make content :) I want to make the best content from me for you I want to be less hard on myself realizing I can’t create or be me if im trying to do anything but I didn’t start taking nudes and posting them on Reddit so I could focus on all the bad things I think about me, this has always been my creative outlet and a way to feel good, so I’m gunna try my hardest to get back there :) And also I’m only answering messages from people who take the time to think about what they ask before they send it If you ever see me do an AMA post, that’s the perfect time to ask me questions and learn about me :)