I wanted to post about the incredibly intimate and profound ..
Added 2023-07-12 00:31:39 +0000 UTCI wanted to post about the incredibly intimate and profound experience I had with myself last night. As some of you may know I have been playing with rope regularly for almost a year and last night I was really stressing about some real life things. I decided to take my mind off things I would put myself in a futo tie and partially suspend myself. I ended up succeeding in my mission. But this experience was different to any other suspension or self tie I have ever been in. By suspending myself, I was fully responsible for my own wellbeing and safety. I was in subspace and domspace simultaneously, a feeling I cant quite describe. I danced and playing in the tie for a few minutes (yes I have video if you guys are interested in that type of content). As I went to untie myself I was so calm until I fumbled untying the last part of the upline. My subspace brain was clouding my common sense (I needed to stand up to release the tension). I internally panicked a little but it took maybe 45 seconds longer than I thought. I quickly untied myself after that. I was a little shook that I didn't do it perfect the first time. (this is something I've never done before on myself or anyone) Now looking back today. I feel so fucking powerful. I am feel so capable of embodying my own fantasies separate from porn. This is the beginning of some beautiful ideas and experiences yet to come! I still have alot to learn and I wont be rushing to self-suspend again until I learn more.
