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Added 2022-02-09 21:50:06 +0000 UTC🔥 Tip $10 if you want a sexy personalized voice recording. Message me the name you want me to use. ❤️ I’m sending out a long solo video today! Hope you all enjoy. :) Here’s a thing I wrote about my bad breakup a couple years back. I wonder if any of you can relate to the sentiments I shared I u n c o n s c I o u s l y built an elaborate mythology behind my ex and I’s relationship, but reality has its cruel ways of imposing itself on you. I think too often about our first meeting at the Strand dollar cart where you bought The Unbearable Lightness of Being and I picked out a book on Wittgenstein. I didn’t want to say hi first but some internal compulsion, foreign to even me, drove me to utter those fateful words, “you look familiar. Do I know you?” I need to stop replaying these moments in my head: him explaining something regarding the Markov Model in our weekly walks through the MET, playing Ticket to Ride at The Uncommons — every memory and future to-be-had experience feels already stained with his continued presence. I remember telling my analyst about him and his question stuck with me in a way that still makes me laugh, “You fell in love with someone because they sang a song by Neutral Milk Hotel to you?” “Kinda”. Every thought about him is framed by this romantic narrative, filtered with magical elements of inevitability. It’s time I resign myself of this delusion and accept that real life does not abide by the maddening logic of love as I envisioned it. The future feels foreign and fragmented without him, but we somehow find ways of moving forward. I’m sure he has. I suppose, it’s my turn now. https://youtu.be/N_SnNVDHlOs
