Have you read Existential Kink? I'm not sure if you'd resona..
Added 2024-03-04 20:08:01 +0000 UTCHave you read Existential Kink? I'm not sure if you'd resonate with all the language, but you may enjoy the basic ideas - we can find pleasure in pain in the bedroom, crave it, be enlivened for it, so what if we found pleasure in pain in existence? In all the situations and feelings in my life that I deem to be "bad" "unwanted" "shameful" "uncomfortable" "agonizing" "confusing" etc, can I get ecstasy from that specific quality, dive into the perverse pleasure of it, as if I wanted to experience it specifically, as part of my curiosity to experience the full range of humanness? How exquisite, how delicious, to have this particular mental loop and struggle. How fun! And maybe the full embracing of it can shift its hold on me, and allow me new choices, but that's just a bonus.
This idea has been crucial to me lately... you may have seen in my short streams or inconsistent posting here that I've been difficult these months, and it is rather unpredictable. I will find you more soon.
