Want to know a bit about my story? I was never trying to sex..
Added 2024-06-13 07:00:25 +0000 UTCWant to know a bit about my story? I was never trying to sexually impress anyone. I never wanted sexual attention. But for some reason I got it. And to this day I still don't totally get it.
But for many years I tried to shut it down and hide my sexuality away. I didn't want to draw attention to myself. But instead of keeping me safe, this kept me scared and small. The attention came regardless, and instead of being ready to face it, I was lost in it, without strength, and I felt victim to the toxic sexual landscape of the world.
Women's bodies are often sexualized without consent. I never had a choice as to if it was going to happen or not. It just did. And this is a default. I never thought I would be an OnlyFans girl or perform in or produce porn. Younger me would have looked at myself now and been shocked to learn that I was thriving in it.
Turns out embracing your sexuality and owning it is a key factor to sexual health and general health. The more we repress and avoid it, the more it will control our subconscious mind.
Desire is a very real thing. We desire closeness and intimacy. There is no shame in desiring someone. There is not shame in being curious to explore. Sex is a deeply healing experience if you want it to be. It can help you explore your lightness and your darkness. Becoming an erotic performer helped me in this way and changed my life for the better.
But we must not lose sight of the fact that we are not entitled to anyone else's body or sexuality. Own your sexuality. Own your desires. The more we can honor and respect the autonomy of another and recognize our sexual desires and embody them, the closer to god we become (don't panic. I'm joking. (Just about the god part))
