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thank you for all the kind words you've written to me! I slept most of the day today and woke up to loud rap music similar to gta when a car drove past my window, which obviously decided not to skimp on the stereo. It was a little unusual, and I got a bit of a blackout for a while. So for a while after I was in bed I walked around the house and tried to parody gta... #halloween #cosplay #goth #emo #egirl #gamergirl #witch #skinny #teen #tiny

Sorry for the last post, it's okay, I wrote this on emotion and now I'm sorry

If you like the photos of witches that I've worked very hard on, put a heart please, so I'll realize that I didn't try for nothing.... It's a little sad when ordinary photos get more attention than something I've worked hard on. And a little update on my life. On October 27th I'm going in for my tumor size and tumor type testing. #skinny #teen #tiny #egirl #goth #emo #witch #halloween #costume #cosplay #gamergirl

I always wanted to be a witch. Or maybe I was already a witch? Either way, I feel like myself in these clothes. I want to buy a big witch's cauldron and make potions..... #Halloween #witch #goth #emo #alt #skinny #teen #gamergirl #egirl #fyp

I'm launching Halloween discounts on subscriptions :3 Valid until November 1st thank you soooo much <3

Congrats to everyone on the upcoming Halloween! My little gamer/witch corner will keep me happy for a long time :3 And I hope you like the look I ended up putting together. I don't know if you like it, but it's exactly what I dreamed of. and my goodness. those big spiders... as soon as I walked into the store I saw them, the spiders were looking at me and I was looking at them, it was love at first sight #Halloween #witch #goth #emo #alt #skinny #teen #gamergirl #egirl #fyp

I altered the clothes according to my idea, as I told, I didn't find a beautiful costume, so I put it together from different elements of clothing, I worked happily for a long hours, and the photos are ready, now I'm going to bed. as soon as I wake up, I'll start posting :3

Woke up very early. waiting for the tape from delivery to complete the decor :3 aaand.... I will finally start posting holiday content soon! Spoiler alert, I found some damn cute spiders. Yesterday I went shopping all day looking for something beautiful and spooky for Halloween and then in the evening I started decorating my room, during this process I found the tape missing (well you saw the last post and know about it) I searched for the tape until late at night and checked all the closets and even crawled on the floor with a flashlight. I couldn't find the ribbon and was very disappointed. eventually I tried to order it through online stores but most of those stores just wouldn't register me. it was a night of war. as soon as I placed the order I went to bed and I wasn't in the mood for a post here but I got some sleep and I'm fine! #skinny #petite #abs #belly #egirl #fyp #croptop #teen #tiny

I'm getting ready for a Halloween photo, decorating my room, but damn, I lost some double-sided tape for the walls... I've been looking for hours now and I can't find it.. Help me upd. In the morning, the courier will come and bring me the tape

And now it's time to go back to sleep so as not to ruin the good regimen I've managed to restore Have a good day #feet #butt #ass #toes #soles #fyp #egirl #skinny #teen #tiny

It's time to move from the floor to the bed! That's what I did today. I'm ready to accept congratulations ^_^ First thing I decided to check out this bed and fell asleep in the middle of the day haha. I think that's a good indicator. #feet #butt #ass #toes #soles #fyp #egirl #skinny #teen #tiny

Communicating with other people is a tricky thing. Even if you are the friendliest person in the world, sooner or later you will meet someone who will get on your nerves. Don't worry if you don't like someone. We're all different. And such a reaction reminds us that no one is perfect. Including ourselves. It's okay. Some people like you and others can't stand you. It doesn't mean that there is something wrong with you or others. It's just that we all have our own preferences. If the answer "I don't want to" is not accepted and further explanation is required, it is abuse. You don't have to socialize with those you don't feel comfortable doing so with If you want to maintain mental health, always make choices in your favor. Can't manage to completely avoid contact with a person? At least minimize all meetings and conversations. This also applies when the other person refuses to communicate with you and does not want to contact you (do not confuse this with shyness), you will not be nice to another person by force. It is more likely to cause this person resentment, irritation and sadness. and you will eventually suffer or hate this person for your wasted efforts and constant refusals from this person. Take care of yourself and your personal boundaries. Communicate with those who appreciate you, whom you appreciate and with whom you feel comfortable and interesting

Oh, and the weekend's over! Have a good work week, everyone! I used to literally live from weekend to weekend when I was at university. I also wanted to quit university a million times, but I was sorry for the wasted time and my parents' help, so I have a diploma that I never used. And when I was working in an office, I didn't work at all in my specialty. It's called sunk cost effect. You probably know about it. But you probably don't use it as much as I do. #fyp #cosplay #teen #skinny #tiny #nahida #belly #costume #geek #nerdy

Went back to 3d today and realized that I want to finish this model I've been learning a lot and honing my skills on. So I quickly added "clothes" or rather some cloth HAHAHA and made a render. I haven't even added eyelashes or finished her hair, but I want to keep going The next model will be better, fixing mistakes is harder than getting it right from the start

Good morning, everyone! Have a happy weekend. Today I'm taking control of myself! I wanted to ask you when do people in the US start celebrating Halloween? I'm thinking in the next few days to get the last Halloween items and start taking pictures. I don't have anything going on so I don't have much to tell. I've been so busy these days that all I've been doing is eating, trying to take care of my hygiene and health, doing work and sleeping the rest of the time. Do I experience guilt for doing nothing? Definitely yes. Does guilt help me? No. I think it's because of the fall, being sick and a bunch of other issues. If you are feeling down too, you are not alone in how you feel. I'm with you! You can just tell all your problems to me in chat, maybe it will make you feel better, don't worry I don't feel bad about it, it makes me feel good that I can do something to help. At the same time you can be a person like me when sometimes you don't want to say anything and just want to be alone, but you want to feel needed, then it's more difficult, but I could also support you and say something kind.... Anyway, I'm at a stage of strong decline in all areas of my life, but I'm doing my best not to lose faith in myself. I'm here for you no matter what happens. Don't lose faith in yourself in the bad times. #skinny #cosplay #teen #tiny #petite #small #belly #abs #egirl #geek #fyp

you might not know but all this time my mattress has been on the floor and I don't have a bed. probably either this weekend or next weekend I will finally have a bed :3 #skinny #teen #cosplay #cosplayer #geek #nerdy #gamergirl #egirl #fyp

I'll keep posting cosplay :3 I'm trying to do a little less 3d (used to be literally all day from waking up to bedtime) and switch to different new little new model creations. It helps to see the flaws better and also I don't lose reality anymore. I'm also quite slowly going through cyberpunk again, I want to see what new things have been added :3 Fell asleep this afternoon and had a very unpleasant nightmare. I was glad to wake up and find myself in reality. I recently received a question about my fears and realized that all my nightmares contain exactly what I am afraid of #teen #tiny #skinny #FYP #petite #cosplay #cosplayer #geek #Nerdy

Today I'm posting Nahida's feet, by the way did you notice that even the feet have bracelets on them? yay I got a delivery of witch cosplay stuff for halloween! I think tomorrow I'll start either a photo set or tweaking the cosplay. I really hope you guys like it. And today I just rested, had a nice chat with my family etc. #cosplay #genshinimpact #cosplayer #fyp #teen #feet #foot #toes #nylon

Rukkhadevata (Nahida) cosplay! I wanted to take these photos in the bright sunshine of nature however it's a cloudy fall. I will definitely do this cosplay again in sunny weather! I made the tapestry a little hacky to make it bigger, but I like it better :3 Wonderful quality cosplay but I got tangled up in all the chains while putting on the costume. I've always been tangled up with chains and strings. put a heart if you like it so I know it's not all for nothing :3 #cosplay #cosplayer #Nahida #genshinimpact #geek #nerdy #skinny #tiny

Okay. I realized that I spend all day without rest in the blender not just because I enjoy it so much but because reality scares me. The blender is the source of my dopamine explosion. I'm hooked on this bomb as accomplishing and learning each new goal is a dose of dopamine every time. I eat worse and sleep poorly because I'm always learning but when I learn something new I feel happy. I'm gonna go wash up now and put the lights and my phone on charge. I'll get ready to take new pictures. Simple photos are almost nobody's favorite and October is literally my worst month ever. So I'm going to try to do something complex and beautiful. Also, I'm very sad that the site recommendations stopped working for me and for other models I know. At the same time I reduced the number of posts on reddit to make the profile look better but because of that I almost stopped getting a new audience. Damn tumor is the reason I'm so cautious, I'll have a checkup at the end of October but maybe later, I'll be told if there are changes and what to do next. However, I feel like it's only gotten worse. Given my sadness over everything that is going on blender has been my drug and salvation.

continuation of the blender section! I tried to do my character's hair. it's too damn awkward to do it without a tablet. but maybe it's because my hands are crooked. Anyway, it was interesting and overall not too bad for the first time

I found this weird video, so I'll just put it here. I didn't even realize the day had gone by. do you know what I'd like to do? write for you only good news and make you happy. be active and tell you how much fun I had somewhere and tell you many different things about different places and events. but I'm sitting in four walls xD

The courier was supposed to arrive today but did not. I hope tomorrow I will receive everything for the costume and start making it, and very soon we will start celebrating Halloween :3 sorry for the chaos in yesterday's and today's photos, I wanted to do a mini photo shoot and ignored the background accidentally...

I tried myself in sculpting with new knowledge, I wanted to do it with the help of a tablet, but the tablet also died xD If you're wondering what I did today, I literally spent the entire day studying the blender, including making this doll, which I haven't finished yet. Well, as you can see, she has no palms and fingers and still has a lot of mistakes to work on. I'll also practice with clothes and stuff. Blender is my passion now behind you can see the reference from which I started, but I did it a little differently If you're interested, I'll show you the final result later

It's warm at home, but my skin is very dry, you can see how dry my tummy is. I'm going to do a lot of moisturizing. I woke up at 5am today, which is really early for me. I was able to catch the sunrise and the birds singing in the morning :3 #skinny #teen #fyp #tummy #belly #petite #tiny #egirl #nerdy

My tripod is broken -_- again

Thank you all for participating. In the end, I've decided I'm going to do the Witch. It will be funny if you change your mind. I was originally planning to order a Halloween costume to thailand from my favorite store that doesn't ship to my country. But since I couldn't fly anywhere and also after spending weeks looking for costumes and then spending all my waking hours on the last days looking for costumes, I didn't find any witch costumes that were beautiful to my taste, I made the decision to make this costume unique. I don't have a sewing machine, etc. I ordered 15 different things from which I will assemble my witch cosplay. My head literally exploded when certain items ran out of stock and I had to find replacements as good as what I had already found (i spent so many many hours). Something will be re-stitched, something will be altered and put together, etc. I have a lot of work ahead of me. My God, it would have been easier to just buy a sewing machine and fabric. My brain needs a rest. Lol I've been too focused. I'll laugh when someone on reddit again says oh what's so hard to take pictures, it's just 1 click on my phone. Let me remind you who I was last Halloween. Ghost face was a surprise guest and fan simple cosplay of one of my favorite characters in DbD And the Other One is a Demoness or succubus. I completely re-stitched this cosplay but both of these cosplays taken were less complicated than the time I had already spent on the witch and the effort I have yet to put in.

Hi! I'm feeling better. I have an urgent survey question for you! Halloween is just around the corner (yes I am captain obvious). I can't decide if I should do a Freddy Krueger cosplay or do a Mystery Witch with a hat etc.? Help me decide please. I've spent all the days that I've been lying in bed and resting watching a million different things for Halloween and my brain is exploding #skinny #tiny #teen #petite #skirt #tummy #flat #bikini #geek #nerdy #egirl

It's very hard today. It's especially hard to sit at the computer. I can't write some long text, I just don't have the energy, if you want you can send some tips for goodies, I literally have 0 energy and feel really bad, sorry. I'm sick of whining and saying sad things. I would love nothing more than to make you guys happy. But if I lie I'm only going to feel worse. #skinny #teen #tiny #skirt #petite #tummy #flat #belly #abs #hipbones

Fell asleep. I woke up with a high body temperature, I hope there will be no fever in the morning. I don't want to get sick