So today is pretty cool.. even though it started shitty because I slept in by FIVE HOURS and missed my much needed phsyio appointment for my sprained ankle (which I have to pay a 40$ cancelation fee for rip me), and also had to rearrange my schedule for the entire week to try and catch up to all the work I had to do this morning 😅😭
Today I am the lowest I have weighed in I think 3 or 4 years. I have lost 15 pounds since quarantine started and I plan on losing about 10 more. Don’t worry I’ll still be thiccccc because part of the reason I’m going so ham on phsyio is so that I can heal all these damn injuries so I can get back to weight training. When I start weight training I’ll be focusing on my booty and thighs again for sure which will keep em all plumped up and what not
I’ve never been “fat” or “overweight” according to doctors, because I’ve always been well within a health weight range for my height (5’11 or so). However I didn’t always used to be thiccc. When I started cosplaying I weighed 135/140 pounds, I didn’t look anything like I do now. Honestly I look better now than I did then. But the problem for me was that the birth control I was on started making me gain weight rapidly and none of the doctors I went to seemed worried, or even thought the birth control was the issue. I only found out when I decided to get off of it and see what happened. Over the course of 3 months I went from 135 to 185 pounds. With no change in diet, or exercise. People said “oh it’s probably just your metabolism and you are still healthy” and I was like yeah except my clothes don’t fit and I gained FIFTY pounds for no reason???? When I eventually got off the birth control it took a few months but I lost about 20 pounds, dropping to 170. I tried a bunch of diets to lose the rest of the weight (believe it or not this was before thiccc was considered a good thing and people commented that I was fat on every single photo I posted) none of the diets worked, none of the exercise worked I was stuck.
I maintained that weight for a while before trying yet another birth control (I don’t want babies obviously). This birth control did the same thing. Everyone kept saying oh just give it 6 months to even out, weight gain is a side effect you can get but it can go away. At the 4 month mark I had gone up to 195 pounds. This is with dieting and going to the gym three days a week (it wasn’t muscle weight I promise you). So I said no, I’m not doing this and I went off of it. Again, after a few months I lost about 15 pounds and dropped to 185, where I was stuck for a year. It wouldn’t budge. And believe me when I say I tried every diet I could think of.
I started quarantine at 185, and again, healthy weight, I wasn’t in bad shape, also my physical activities meant I was still very strong. But I was just tired of ordering clothes and costumes online and never having them fit me. It’s super depressing to spend money on things that say they will fit and then they don’t. So I decided to try again to lose weight. This time I did something different - I’ve learned that my digestive system is FUCKED and eating often causes me pain. I looked into this and found out about the FODMAP diet which is about cutting out foods that contain families of sugar that are known to commonly cause discomfort in people. So in addition to exercise, calorie deficit and FODMAP I FINALLY started to see results for the first time in my life when it comes to weight loss (besides just getting off of birth control). Today I weigh 168 pounds which is just unreal to me. I feel so much better and you can see from these photos that a lot of my bloating has gone down.
It’s so empowering to finally be in control over my body after suffering for so long because of hormonal birth control, especially after numerous doctors tried to tell me there’s no way it was causing me problems because my “hormone levels seemed fine”. I’m on non-hormonal birth control now and it makes such a difference.
Obviously my weight will fluctuate and I’ll have days that are higher and days that are lower especially if I choose to indulge in higher fodmap foods that I know will hurt me. But I’m so happy that I’ve made it this far. It’s funny last year when I was stuck at 185 pounds people kept commenting that it looked like I had either gained/lost weight and it drove me crazy because it’s like no - I literally havent- I couldn’t if I tried.
My goal weight is 160 and then I’m just going to work on training my muscles again post injuries, and maintaining that weight.
Sorry for the long post this is just something I’ve never talked about before and I wanted to share about my journey :)
I took this after stream, in surprised because even though I’ve been losing weight my booty has decided to keep chillin and I can’t complain tbh also even tho this photo is hella cake it’s the back muscles for me honestly
How are you doing today? What are your weekend plans?
More from the dark demon set :o do you guys prefer dark or light aesthetics?
I think the next set I’ll be releasing is the white demon :3 and we still have 02, dark demon, and the sequin rave set to release!! I’m having so much fun making casual content for you guys :)
With halloween approaching would anyone be interested in purchasing the boosette set I did two years ago? there’s some HD photos and some cute selfies too, some I don’t know if I’ve ever shared :o I could send it out as a ppv if people were interested !
Also happy thanksgiving ^^
Here are some selfies I took after stream last night! This is from the outfit I put together for the custom video request I sent out to your DMs today ^^ here’s a little clip of what to expect if you buy it, lots of dancing and bouncing 🌸 I hope you like this look!
This top was one size fits all, but again I was foiled because that never actually applies to me it seems :’) it was a struggle to make it work but now it really do be poppin off 💪🏻
Should I do a stream on here soon? I saw someone suggest social eating which could be fun! What do you think?
Just sent out a little ppv message with some photos of me in this baggy shirt and my new hair~ very casual but still spicy! I made it a cheaper price to make up for the more expensive set I sent out yesterday ^^
do you like my new hair? ☺️
Snapped this photo after stream last night 😏
also October is almost here!! I have so many outfits planned I can’t wait to shoot them and share them ahhhh
Here are the sona photos as promised ^^ that means I still have to release the sequin rave set for you guys, and the ppv cat woman set soon :) I can’t wait to get more content shot so I can show it to you all! 🌸
How are you guys doing? How was your weekend?
I’ll be posting the sona set soon!! It’s almost ready! The end of the month is always crazy busy for me trying to be ready for deadlines and get patreon sets ready to go ^^ also preparing for my subathon tomorrow!! It starts around noon EST please come say hello <3
Here’s my butt. That’s it. That’s the post.
No but really I can’t wait to shoot more content for y’all, I have gotten so many cute outfits from eBay and I can’t wait to put together new looks!!
Also Sona got second on the last poll so that will be the next set I release here on the feed :3 I will also be sending the Dom Catwoman through ppv soon if that interests you <3
G’night 💛
Here’s the first half of the set!! I’m uploading it in two parts because there’s so many photos ^^
I hope you like this! I had a lot of fun shooting it, I always love shooting in rave looks :)
this is a big set so tips are always appreciated but not necessary!! <3
I will be shooting some more sets soon in the outfits I showed during my try on video!! But for now keep your eyes pealed because im gonna post the blue oil slick rave outfit set I shared previews of a while back, hopefully today or maybe tomorrow :3
for this nurse outfit I’m thinking it might look good as Irina cuz all the dxd girls have tons of nurse outfit cards. What do you think 🤔
also super exciting news, I have been saving up for a long time, and yesterday I finally did the thing. I’m a car owner!! I’ve literally never been able to buy a car in my life, and while it’s a used car I’m still very excited. I’m finalizing the financing and stuff today and hopefully will get to drive it home. I’m happy because it means it will be easier for me to find cool locations to shoot, and it will be easier for me to get costume supplies like fabric and foam! Anyway I hope you are all having a good day :)
