***CAMGIRL MEMOIR 21 - WARDROBE MA LFUNCTION***
**2019**
It's Friday night and the clock shows it's 8pm. I just finished my make up and from my mirror reflection I can see my closet filled with short, tight and sexy clothes that I can't wear outside the house. I enter the shower to wash off my body exfoliant/hydrating treatment, and add tanning lotion to my already sun kissed skin (gotta keep that glow) after patting myself dry with the towel.
Now it's time to pick my outfit. On my bed I have a few option to choose from. Dresses and skirts are fun to dance in but booty shorts are cheeky.. tough call.
I pick the lingerie of the night, a red lace thong with a stylish red top that I bought separate, but it still matches perfectly. A very short little skirt, a sexy cropped top, black thigh high stockings and high heels. I look in the mirror and see the top button of my shirt hanging for dear life under my cleavage...
**"Perfect!"** - I think, it's always a conversation starter.
I set extra lingerie and sexy pieces like gloves and different stockings nearby so I can change my clothes for fun during the show. Now, all I need before going live is a water bottle. I open my bedroom door to rush to the kitchen and witness my mom watching brazilian soap opera in the living room, with her eyes closed (she does this a lot lol).
***"Okay mom! Going to work now, bye!"***
She opens her eyes halfway:
*"Ok, love! Good Luck!"* - and closes them again to keep watching TV.
My heels clack as I rush back into my bedroom. I close the door, stop for a second thinking how bizarre it is to tell your mom goodbye and say you are going to work as you walk into the bedroom wearing visible lingerie, and laugh.
One deep breath later, I give my outfit a last look in the mirror and log into the website.
The live starts and I walk back to show how I look tonight while moving to the music. Not even 8 minutes go by and my chatroom is number 1 for "most viewers" in the website I worked at. It was effortless at that point. I just had to show up and have a successful night.
The first 4 digit tip comes in, along with a surprising request:
***"Hi queen! You look amazing tonight. Can you show me your yoga pants?"***
🤡
There goes the outfit planning of the night...
Hah Don't get me wrong though. I did love Mr.Vogue. He always tipped well for public chat "Fashion Shows" and it was good content. At the end of the night I always had a gigantic pile of clothes to take care of... the seamy side of the job.
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Mr. Los_erPig11 always popped up during these shows. It's like he had little antennas that captured what I was streaming every night. His request had been the same since 2016:
Mr. Los_erPig11 tipped 200 tokens and left a message: ***"Please, Goddess! Let me buy one of your us.ed panties"***
I wasn't sure about the idea of sending clothes with my DNA to strangers. Plus, someone had showed me it was actually illegal to do it in some States. However, his loyalty and persistence won me over eventually. It had been 3 years of generous requests after all...
**"Ok.. I will send you a pair for $100"**
***"That's a lot Goddess but I will do it, can you send the ones you are wearing right now on Tuesday?.... Can you wear them until then?"***
That would be 3 nights wearing the same panties.. bleh and I don't even like to wear panties most of the time.
**"Ok it will be $300..."**
***"Thank you, Goddess"***
No further comments.. friends don't judge.
~~~
Tuesday afternoon I walked into the Post Office feeling very shady. The guy handling my package behind the counter had no idea what was inside the hard box. He flipped it around like something was off:
***"Wow it's very light... What are you sending?"***
My face blushed.
**"Oh.. My friend forgot a bikini in my house so I'm mailing it back."**
At this point I'm sure he was picturing my friend "Steve" wearing a bikini at Miami Beach with me, but decided to not ask further questions.
***"This is the return address you want?"*** - He pointed at the fake address I wrote down on the front.
**"Y..yes"**
The package was supposed to arrive in 2 days.
~~~~~
5 days later Mr.Los_erPig11 showed up again:
***"Hi Goddess did you ever send the panties? When will they arrive?"***
**"Yes, you can check the tracker I sent you."**
***"Oh Goddess I'm so sorry I sent you the wrong address. Oh no I'm such a lo.ser. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me, Goddess?"***
I check the website: "Package was mailed back to sender"
Facepalm.
**"Are you serious? I asked you to double check...The sender address wasn't even my own"**
***"I'm so sorry goddess I'm a los er. Are you going to yell at me on Skype?"***
Yeah...
Mr.Los erPig11 had a k1nk for p i s sing me off and he exceeded at it.. save the name.
~~~~~
R.I.P. person that checked the returned mails that week.
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Sweet dreams I will be around tomorrow 😊 the cellphone microphone wasn't even that bad 😅
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Happy 3rd of July!
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Me + You Tomorrow All Day? Afternoon til sleep time with movie
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***CAMGIRL MEMOIR 20 - THRIFTING***
One of the most satisfying things about visiting another country is experiencing the cultural differences.
As someone that grew up seeing kids using 3rd and even 4th handed clothes until they were unwearable, only to witness the clothes turned into cleaning rags or puppy blankets. Or furniture and appliances that would last each family about 80+ years until unusable. I was amazed at how many good, like new, things you could find in thrift shops and websites like Craigslist.
And I'm not even going to get into the "For free" items I'd see people leave on the sidewalk for anyone to take.
Ah.... 'Murica! A consumers' paradise. Broke or not. The wheel keeps turning... But how much is too much?
**2012 through 2013** - a couple times a month I'd see a comment pop up in my chat:
***Mr.EasternIndian: Hello, I was wondering if you could make me a custom video? a creampie video with east indian guy with long hair on a nude beach? please It doesn't have to quick, you can take your time and get to know someone and then do it. If you don't know any then put a craigslist ad I guess it should work fine. I am ready to pay Whatever tokens you want?***
It was always the same message. Copied and pasted. The first time I saw it I smirked, "wtf?".
The second, I remembered him from the other day.
The third I appreciated the persistence.
The fourth, I irked and ignored,
then forgot...
Until a few months later, when he returned:
***Mr.EasternIndian: Can you make a custom creampie video with an east indian guy on nude beach? please It's doesn't have to be soon you can take your time. I am ready to pay whatever tokens you want? If you don't know any you can get to know someone through online tools (craigslist, other dating sites) It's ok if it takes like a month or so.***
At least the message changed, but because I didn't acknowledge him on chat he started sending e-mails:
***Can you make a custom creampie video with an east indian guy and long dark hair? please It's doesn't have to be soon you can take your time. I am ready to pay whatever tokens you want? If you don't know any you can get to know someone through online tools (craigslist, other dating sites)***
If chatroom was quiet, I could count on Mr.EasternIndian to make some noise, at least every now and then...
**2013 - 1 year after a camming break** - a new cycle began:
***Mr EasternIndian: Can you make a custom creampie video with an east indian guy with long hair on a nude beach? please It's doesn't have to be soon you can take your time. I am ready to pay whatever tokens you want? If you don't know any you can get to know someone through craigslist, other dating sites. I can pay whatever you want***
**"WOW! Are you insistent!"** - I replied for the first time.
***Mr EasternIndian: Please do this for me! I can pay all tokens you want! You can go to a dating site like Craigslist ***(?)*** or others sites and put an ad for East Indian guy to me et in public beach in North California. What do you say for only one time? I don't care if takes one month to find him***
I rolled my eyes and he left.
I could picture several well constructed and informative romantic ads spread across "dating sites like Craigslist and others":
***"East Indian guy, 32, enjoys long walks on the beach...looking for southern brazilian"***
Who would have guessed that my strict list of requirements could be easily fulfilled had I looked for it at the right time? I bet I'd not have to look for long.
He tried until late 2014.
But the ads slowly and sadly got buried by other items for sale. Buried to oblivion... and unanswered.
Romance was dead. It was discarded along with a $10 mattress with bed bugs.
***Sad little violin playing***
But only for a few months!
He resurrected in **2015** with a new look and the first and only tip he ever sent me:
***Mr. EastIndian02 tipped 5 tokens and left a message: can you make me boy girl creampie video with a stranger please? I can pay 15,000 tokens. (I mean real stranger and interracial) You can put an ad and get someone please.***
It looks like hair length, nationality and location were reconsidered...but it wasn't "any amount of tokens I wanted" anymore.
Sight.
However, the most important requirement remained...
Let's cut to the chase.
I've always been more of a Key Lime Pie person myself. It would never work.
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Curiosities about the m ovie "Central Station" and
Sweet ASMR Camping at the beach!!!
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Pre Movie hang out
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Fridays Belly dance class/Just being silly in the kitchen and some asmr! I missed you <3
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I'm Back!!! Apparently Onlyfans got very mad at me watching movies on Sunday nights and posting the recorded streams even after they didn't let me save it. I was banned from posting and streaming for a few days :(
I think we can still have movie nights But I really can't post the streams anymore. I want to go live tonight as I was unable to stream the previous couple of days ❤️
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***CAMGIRL MEMOIR 19 - Colorblind***
**2012**
***"Tell me what you think of this black dick... how would you fuck it?"*** - he asked after sending the image of a fit black man displaying his horse sized penis, that grew almost as high as his neck.
As a Brazilian born in a deeply mixed family and culture I never put much thought on the difference between people's colorations.
I could see it in my family. I had seen my grandmother, a brazilian black native indian, birth 3 blonde babies. One of them with very curly hair, and another dark brown baby with smooth hair.
An aunt, a green eyed dark haired woman, gave life to dark brown and very fair skinned babies; and even my sister, a blue eyed with curly blonde hair baby, born to brunette parents with straight hair, like myself.
My best friend was a white asian girl with a dark skinned asian baby sister (as her parents were an asian and a black person)
Naturally, growing up I used to think that God just liked to play mix and match and people were born with random features, regardless of what the parents looked like. It always felt like an awesome creative concept and I loved how colorful the world was.
Soon enough, I learned about genetics and phenotypes which remained a wonderful creative concept, but much less chaotic and surprising than I thought.
The relevance of someone's color remained the same to me, however. Absolute 0.
For Mr. Colorblind however, skin color was not only a big deal but also the main focus of his sexual fantasies.
Our first Private had felt like an interview. He wanted to know about my background and asked me to rate famous guys' looks as I bounced on a pillow, the second time around he wanted me to twerk and included some light dirty talk that was borderline "race play", and this time it quickly evolved into this:
***"I like to see beautiful girls talking about how they want to get screwed by real men with big black dicks. How many black guys have you fucked?"***
**"Oh yes.. black dick is soooo much better than white. So much bigger and harder.. I can't count how many I've had, but I want more.."** - I answered in a convincing enough tone while a flashback of the only 2 (non black or white, but very mixed latinos) sexual partners I had under my belt. I chuckled. Hollywood was missing out an actress.
Right after that dialogue he sent pictures of well hung white and black guys.
***"Tell me what you think of them....how come the black cock looks much better even when they are the same size?"***
Tough request as to me one didn't look better or worse than the other. But equally scary because of their unusual, hopefully photoshopped, sizes.
So I made something up to please him.
***"hmmmm it's so hot when you talk like that. Black men really look more fit and his cock is more shiny like you said. You love it don't you? Black guys make you cum much harder. Tell me how you suck a big black cock if it doesn't fit in your mouth. Show me how you'd twerk on this black hard dick with that cute white ass"***
He talked about penis so much that it was surprising to hear him talk about my ass for once. Lol.
After the 10th huge black penis picture I was glancing at the clock every 5 seconds wondering how much longer this Private show would last. His obsession was very intense this time.
***"How would you cum on it? Moan while you tell me how much superior black dick is"***
I was starting to feel uncomfortable.
Not necessarily with the raunchiness, but the aggressiveness on the comparison between black and white men. I was secretly growing resentment towards this guy's rudeness. Why did he think he was so much better because of skin color?
***"If I tip you 200tokens will you open my webcam?*** - he requested.
**"Sure.."** I replied, wondering what it looked like after all. He must be huge to talk like this.
Curiosity really gets the best out of you.
And now, as I write this memoir, I see how obvious it was all along. But at the time I was shocked at the reveal of Mr. ColorBlind.
A youn.g, snow as white, much smaller than average size guy masturbated furiously with a Tenga Egg (Google it. It's for guys that can't get... chicks.. ba dum tss) as I opened his webcam. He looked like he had freckles even down below.
***"Tell me how you'd fuck him and let the white guy just watch in the corner..."***
Hum
Well...
This was the last time I assumed anything about someone's looks from their sexual preferences and kinks.
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It's raining and this mildly snobbish artist wants to make a painting inspired on you....
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Hii Everyone! How Monday treated you? I'm posting the first part of last night livestream.. Yes I still suck at belly dancing practice but a slow climb is better than none 🙃
Let's do our dancing class this Thursday night again! Perhaps we should practice a beginner full dance routine so I can present it on Twitch once mastered!
Unfortunately the ASMR didn't record with the best audio because it was a cap from my live stream, but I will post it anyways. As for the movie nights I will open a special session on discord to post the streams there
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so far none of the recordings showed up 😅 i will check again in the morning. Good night loves <3
Update: I will post the recording as soon as I get en 😅
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***CAMGIRL MEMOIR 16 - BOUNDARIES PT. 2***
**2011**
A few days later I noticed almost all of my tippers were hanging in my chatroom so I announced to chat that I'd take my bra off while wearing a totally see through lingerie dress. I drew a thermometer on a white board and for every 100tks I'd do a little tease and paint over a piece of the thermometer. At the top I drew a pair of boobs.
Visualizing the goal would make it more appealing, I thought.
As soon as I displayed the board the bells went off.
**"Whoa this worked faster than I expected"**
***Mr Pimp tipped 900 tokens and left a message: "That's it? I feel lucky. Dance to this song*** - and sent a link.
Mr Pimp visited me before but this time he was tipping very well and finished every goal I had that night.
My chatroom reached 130 people for the first time and that made me want to scream. As someone always used to the upper double digits, seeing triple made me feel very popular.
I did enjoy the adrenaline kick in from the positive response, and after I started going through my husband's alcohol shelf and offering to take vodka shots for tips the money started rolling in even more.
Someone requested me to dance to Cupid's Shuffle. And I genuinely just had the most fun I had not had in awhile.
I only flashed my breasts a couple of times and danced a lot.
~~~
***MrPimp: I will keep finishing your topics if you want to keep doing shows like that***
***Mr Pimp: You should get these lingeries (sent me the link) and show me how they look on you when they arrive.***
And sent me an Amazon Gift Card.
I complied.
~~~
***Mr Pimp: Yes this one looks super hot. Can you twerk in that for me a little bit? Yes that's hot.. Now the next one?"***
I felt like I was being coached.
***Mr Pimp: Meh that one doesn't look that good on your ass and makes your boobs look weird. Maybe you can ask for a refund and get something else..***
*"I thought maybe I should get fake boobs... my husband told me I'd probably look better. But most pornstars he has showed me had weird fake looking ones in my opinion."*
***Mr Pimp: Yeah its a matter of taste I think. Fake boobs are hot as long as you don't put salines. My ex's tits felt like a ball of sand. The gel ones are very soft. You have enough tits that it will probably feel natural still so don't worry much***
***Mr Pimp: Can you take everything off for me just this one time?***
***Mr Pimp: Why do you care if it leaks.. I'm sure someone already leaked you online. Hold on...***
My boobs shaking around as I went "to the right to the right to the right to the right", my ass shaking more as I went "now kick, now kick, now kick, now kick" and a shameless loose smile with smudged red lipstick as I walked by myself. - obviously dru.nk out of my mind.
This is how I looked in my first ever leaked video, at least in the link Mr Pimp sent.
The title read: Sexy nerdy girl dancing.
I freaked.
Luckily (and curiously) I was still clothed in the video.
*"How did you find this?"*
***Mr Pimp: I guess I just know where to look...***
~~~
***Mr Pimp: Btw. .yeah I agree you look great now but if you get your breasts done then you will be a bombshell. I agree with him. It will complement your hips. Get small implants and it will look great.***
Deep down I didn't care about their opinions. I also thought I'd look much prettier and be more confident.
~~~
January 2012 - A special gift to myself
I walked into the sporting goods store I worked at and sent a vacation request note to the manager. At the end of my shift he called me into his office.
***"So what is going on? Do you just want to visit your family?"*** - He asked me.
**"Yes I will also have a procedure so when I return I won't be able to sweep the floors on closing hours"**
***"A surgery? What for?"***
**"Ah..my.. chest"**
***"Oh wow oh okay. I got it. I didn't think you needed it. I didn't imagine. Sorry . You have been working with us over 1 year. No questions asked. You can have your break no problem. I hope you have a good day.*** - He blushed and dismissed me.
~~~
My husband and I had been even more distant around this time, however we did have a nice trip planned to the mountains on the next morning, right after my doctor appointment for a full pre op check up. That was something to look forward to.
I had to wake up at 6am and drive in the early morning icy road, carefully letting the car slide by itself onto the road.
**"What won't a woman do to get what she wants..."** - I laughed to myself.
The Army had a very nice clinic on base for all military families. They took awhile to call me but once I got in the room the nurse asked me to remove my shirt and my bra and wear the clinic's top.
The doctor arrived soon. I had seen him chatting loudly in the corridor. He was a youn.g man in his early 30's. He asked what I was there for and I mentioned I needed a breast examination for implants' pre op. He looked down my cleavage and said:
***"Really? It doesn't look like you need it. Lay down so I can examine you"***
He asked me to open my top and started to fondle my breasts without looking away, as doctors usually do (I didn't know that yet though). He took his time to press on it all over and even listened to my heart beat while my clothes were unnecessarily open. Then he examined my breasts a second time around the nipples.
It felt like an eternity and as soon as he finished I closed my top quickly.
There was this intense distinct tingle in my stomach that one usually feels when they are in danger or violated. But nothing really obvious to me had happened so I couldn't say why.
I sat down and the doctor went on saying everything was fine and he didn't have a reason to stop me from getting the surgery done.
***"But can I request you something? Please, don't do it. Think about it more. Your breasts are very healthy as they are. They look perfectly fine as is"***
**"Thanks. I'm.. very set on the idea."**
***"Can you please open your top for me to check one more thing?"***
I opened the top confused.
His eyes looking straight at my chest before I even finished opening the button. Once they were out he placed both hands, one on each of my breasts and pushed them together very gently for a few seconds as if he was measuring them.
My stomach turning and my head feeling dizzy. "Is this appropriate?" I just wanted to leave.
I look at the nurse standing behind the doctor and she is looking straight at the door almost as if she was a soldier herself. I wanted her to look at what was happening and give me a confirmation that this was all very inappropriate, but she didn't move her eyes from the door. Not even a glimpse.
I looked back at the doctor.
***"Listen, they are really really perfect and healthy. Please promise me you will think a little more about getting this surgery"*** - He said, while his eyes moved back and forth from my breasts to my face a couple of times. He smiled "kindly".
**"O.."** - My voice failed - **"Okay I will think about it"** - I was screaming inside. Feeling horribly freaked out but also feeling I didn't have any proof that anything wrong was happening. I just wanted to get out of there with my "boob job permission".
With his hands still placed on the outer side of each of my breasts, he gave them one long long last look and sighted.
***"Please put your clothes back on while I prepare the paperwork"***
The nurse excused herself and said she had to leave now that I was clothed because they needed her in the other room.
I felt I wanted to cry but I didn't let it show. Nothing had happened, I told myself.
He finished signing the paper and handed it to me. I grabbed on it but before letting it go, he said:
***"Think about what I told you... But return here even if you get the surgery done"*** - and smiled. I tried to smile back and walked out quickly.
I drove out of the parking lot and on the first red light that my car stopped I started crying. I felt violated and I didn't know to explain why and how. I also didn't feel like I could do anything about it. I could still feel his hands on my breasts. More than anything I was crying because I was furious.
Yes! That's the word! I was furious! I punched the wheel: "Not again!!!"
I look at the clock and notice I was 10 min. late for the time my husband set we had to drive off so I just kept on driving. The icy roads were completely melted now.
My husband was so pissed off when I got home. He hated being late. Although we were just driving to the mountains. I told him something weird had happened at the clinic and started explaining the way the doctor examined me. The tears rolled down as I talked, but my voice was firm.
***"You probably imagined things. They always have a female nurse in the room"*** - he interrupted me - ***"Let's go! We are already late for check-in."***
I held back the tears and didn't speak of it ever again. In fact I was so furious that I felt eerily calm.
.
When we returned from another sexless argumentative trip I had an Amazon delivery waiting at the door.
Three new costumes: A maid, a black outfit with a booty spanker and a nurse costume, ironically.
The guys online seemed so much better than the real life guys at this point...at least on MFC I could have full control.
Two things I promised myself: 1. No one would ever touch me against my will without severe repercussions ever again. 2. No one would make me doubt myself ever again.
Later I had to add more promises to the list.
To be continued...
P.S: I found out a couple of years later the doctor got fired for unethical behavior. I guess I wasn't the only one..
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Belly Dance practice or tubeman from gas station?
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Friday ASMR :) Will start recording from the source for better quality
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I think it didnt record any of my streams tonight? Did anyone record? :(
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