Yo, listen up here's a story
About a little gal
That lives in a blue world
And all day and all night
And everything she sees is just blue
Like her inside and outside
Blue her house
With a blue little window
And a blue corvette
And everything is blue for her
And herself and everybody around
Cause she ain't got nobody to listen to
I'm blue
Da ba dee da ba di💙
So sorry in the delay in responding to messages and tips for the last little bit 😭 this divorce breakup has been a lot! Everything is just going up and down for me. i still don’t regret my choices and decision to go thru with this but it’s been quite a tough time at home this last week or two to say the least. Been trying to deal with paperwork and appointments and arrangements for all of this and planning my move for august. It’s going to be super hard doing all this without any friends or family to guilds me thru or help me throughout this but it’s only going to make me a stronger more independent woman ! I PROMISE I will have ALL messages and tips responded to this evening. I will send goodies to people who have been waiting patiently fo things they’ve tipped towards for the tardiness and lack or response. I know you all are so supportive and understanding during these stressful times for me. We are only human right. It shows how great of a community I have here and I love and appreciate all of you ! Just know I am safe and things will in fact be better for me on the very near future ! I will be back to full time posting tomorrow as well and will FINALY start finishing up that tip menu I’ve been trying to finish for weeks now, but sadly life has gotten in my way. I’ve been extremely depressed and felt trapped for years in a toxic relationship I didn’t and to be in and I’m so glad that I got the courage to stick up for myself and get out of it. Well I’m not fully out of it yet, but I will be moving August 1st across the country to start my new chapter and by spring next year yoir ginna see a whole new and improved glow up from me !
Been a really rough emotional last few days for me! Thank you so much for all the kind words and encouragement and support that I did the right thing. I will get to messages tomorrow and tip message and purchase tomorrow. I feel like the universe is calling out to me and that everything happens for a reason. I know my life will be a million times better in a couple months when I am able to move away from BC and stay with a friend to get back on my feet and recover from all this emotional turmoil and save save save since I have been taking the role of the everything for the last so many years without help or support. It will be so nice to not have to pay bills and just be able to use all my money to save and get ahead again. It will be even better a year from now when I have saved up enough to get my own place and never have to worry about the stress of living with anyone ever again. I will be able to excel so much more with work without any distractions, disturbances or stress. I believe that everything happens for a reason and I’m glad I’m getting myself finally out of this hell hole trap that I have been in. So excited to see what the future holds for me! And I can’t wait to have you guys come along the journey with me !
To think… he fucked up the chance to be with me and chose to be an emotionally ābusive, financially ābusive, verbally ābusive, manipulative, narcissistic, controlling, ass hole who gas lighted me all these years when I did everything for him. I did all the cooking, cleaning, laundry, paid all the bills. While he sat there calling me names and making me the villain. Breaking me all these years for me to just glue myself back together. I quit smoking weed and got myself on antidepressants to cope with all of this. 5 months sober as of last week. And I just had my breaking point that just don’t want to live like this anymore. Had to find a way to safely get myself out of this cage. Told him I need to go home to be with my family and I was made out to be the villain and told I don’t care about him and care about family more. I’ve seen my family twice in the last 13 years. I think it’s time to move on and start a brand new book in my life. Finally be happy. Finally find me and who I am and what makes me smile and laugh. I put up with this for to long. In August I will be free and safe far away from this and I will refuse to ever allow myself to make this same mistake ever again. I will never let anyone ābuse me like that ever again
Sorry these last few days have really been one of the worst weeks I’ve had. Spent 13 years in toxic ābusive relationship and finally got the courage to get out of it and I’m going to move home where my family is this summer to start my life all over and get back on my feet and then get my own place in May next year and be debt free and stress free! I’m scared but I’m excited to see what the future brings for me being the independent woman I need to be. I will need all the support I can get to help me get thru all this. I think I made the right choice. I was super unhappy and so much ābuse and in the end I want to be closer to family. I spent 5 years in BC and I just feel so alone here. Time to live free and happy for once in my life
I’m so with much thought and consideration, I’ve decided that I’m going to be leaving my life in BC behind and I’m going to be moving across the country to start my life over at the end of summer. And then the beginibg of spring next year I will have my own place living my best life alone and happy. I’ve been so scared to get out of my toxic situation for years. 13 years of gaslighting and ābuse has broken me down. I hope that I can succeed to build a better life alone. I’m gonna need all the help and support I can to get thru all of this.
Been a super rough week in my RL. Been doing a lot of dump runs and yard work/cleanup. Hopefully I can figure something out soon regarding having to move. Still to early to start the search for new rentals. But I’d rather get the bull of the big stuff done and out of the way so I can really focus on working for the next two months to save
Gonna get to my tips and messages this evening. Just need to make supper and doing a bit of house work today. I’m starting early with cleaning decluttering packing up things that won’t be used in the next three months and downsizing because it’s better to be prepared early then doing everything in the last month because I still wanna focus a lot more on work in the next three months as well, but I’d rather get a lot of the stuff done before the end of this month so I can focus more on work next month and and June, because once I get custom requests after my tip menu is posted I’m gonna be pretty busy and I’m gonna have to save up quite a bit of money for moving anyways so I’m gonna have to think of some ways to do a new campaign find more ways to help contribute to my moving costs. So after I’m done supper and done some cleaning and, relaxing, I’m gonna get to my Tips and Messages. I was going to have my tip menu posted this week but kind of had a little bit of a fuck up in my plans so that’s gonna be postponed and delayed by a few days. It should be up by Monday guarantee.
Sorry the last few days have been a rough one for me. My ass hole landlord decided to evict us and gave us 90 days notice to move so needless to say it’s been a stressful few days