Got some cute lil morning booty to brighten up your day ☺️
Got some cute lil morning booty to brighten up your day ☺️
2022-12-17 17:46:47 +0000 UTC View Post
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It been a long last few days for me. Days of wondering, feel..
It been a long last few days for me. Days of wondering, feeling doubt, feeling defeated and dismissed. Things aren’t like they used to be when doctors actually cared about you and when husbands treated their wives with respect. I feel like the world is constantly changing, and not for the good. I am so gosh damn appreciative for all of you guys that care and understand and can relate in so many ways to the things I have going thru and dealing with. We are all only human and we can only do what we can. Thank you for being patient with me for the last while. I can’t wait for this year to be done and over with. December is always a hard month for me just in general because I am so far away from family and feel so alone half the time even though you are surrounded by people . Again thank you for understanding and being respectful towards me. I do have a bit of messges to catch up on today so I hope you can hear with me and I plan on having all my DMs answered before the end of this weekend. Messages and video purchases. I’m so sorry for the hold up and lack of posts but we need to take care of ourselves first before we can take care of others. I did not expect me last few days to go to shits like they have and I plan on making next year a much better year. Agajn I am very sorry to anyone that may be disappointed in me and all I can say is I’m very sorry
2022-12-17 17:46:01 +0000 UTC View PostI am back from emergency. I was trying to sleep some what si..
I am back from emergency. I was trying to sleep some what since I haven’t slept last night. I was certain that I was having a heart attack earlier today cause i was showing all the signs and symptoms but I am also a hypochondriac. I was sent to the ER by the walk in doctor. After a few hours being there. My BP was 190 and kept rising. They did test but apparently everything came back fine and they tried to say it’s my anxiety but I don’t really believe them. They sent me on my way. I’m going to get myself a BP monitor and monitor my vitals daily to see if stress and anxiety is what causes my high BP. Because I got my vitals checked at 8 am I was not anxious or stressed at that time and it was 175. I was just going to the walk in to follow up regarding my meds so I had nothing to me anxious or stressed out about that’s why I don’t believe them. They were very dismissive this time and told me this is Urgant care and not a primary care. So suizide and high BP and chest pain thumbing arm and hand a tumor in my neck doesn’t classify as Urgant ? But then they send me to the ER which emergency!? rhrn they said 39 year olds rarely have heart attacks but we’ll send you to emerg anyways. They called me a cab which showed up 3 times and they didn’t tell me it was there cause they wouldn’t let me leave to go outside to watch for it so I waited an hour and a half and they kept saying the cab neve showed up when it did ! 3 times. So if I was actually having a real heart attack at that time they literally were not showing any care and compassion and only cared about dealing with the walk in patients. Once the ER test came back fine they literaly kicked me out right away and were laughing at me when I asked for a cab vouchers cause it was going to cost me 80$ to cab home and they said take the bus we don’t give free rides here and I said I have been at the walk in since 5 am are you kidding me. I am stressed I am tired I am over heating and you don’t care . It took me 3 hours just to get to my ENT appointment on Tuesday for two minutes . It would of taken me 2 hours to get home in the bus. I needed to eat and sleep I wasn’t getting on the bus. I caught the wrong bus going home form the ENT appointment the other day the bus causes me to much stress. So I paid 80$ to take a cab home and the cabby was super creepy trying to put moves on me and I felt super uncomfortable. I fear so much for my safety in public transit and in cabs I never want to take public transit and cabs again. All I wanted to do is take care of my health and everyone has been so dismissive, this is why I give up so fast on trying
2022-12-16 05:16:09 +0000 UTC View PostI’m in emergency. Bl00d pressure is 190. Chest pain left arm..
I’m in emergency. Bl00d pressure is 190. Chest pain left arm hurting and left hand tingling like pins and needles
2022-12-15 19:20:43 +0000 UTC View PostSerious question. Would you guys still love me if half my fa..
Serious question. Would you guys still love me if half my face was paralyzêd? Cause my tumor in my neck will become malignant within 5-20 years if I just leave it and I can d!e. The only option that I’ve been given is surgery sometime next year but it’s going to cause me to have impaired function of my facial nerves on the left side of my face Becuas whey have to remove the nerve in my ear which then causes damage to my face nerves so I’ll have facial palsy. I’m going to not feel beautiful anymore or be able to smile without looking funny. So it’s a choice of d!eing at a yung age from cancer or having facial palsy for the rest of my life. Both seem like shitty options
2022-12-14 06:08:00 +0000 UTC View Post
How’s the view from down there ? 😛
How’s the view from down there ? 😛
2022-12-12 04:09:06 +0000 UTC View Post
come wash me up then get me all dirty again ☺️
come wash me up then get me all dirty again ☺️
2022-12-12 04:07:58 +0000 UTC View PostSo I got excited that he was going to camp tomorrow but now ..
So I got excited that he was going to camp tomorrow but now it’s postponed due to the Xmas and new years holidays so they are going to the heli log camp January 5th so at least it’s still happening I just need to wait a little bit longer to get some peace and quiet. I’ve been feeling so much better since going back down to my lower dose. No more intrusive zuicide thoughts anymore so that’s good ! Just need to push thru the next 3 weeks and things will get better for me ! I’ve been pot free for almost a month now and I’m so proud of myself about that ! Pushy cat is still in heat but I think she’s slowly getting out of it but I expect her to go back in just cause all the changes happening at home. My hope is to get her fixed the second week of January
2022-12-12 03:57:33 +0000 UTC View PostGod may have granted me my wish I’ve been dreaming for. Adam..
God may have granted me my wish I’ve been dreaming for. Adam got a call to be a heli logger and leaves Monday if he makes the cut tomrorw when they go for orientation. It’s been a fuckijg shit show here at home the last few days. I really hope he makes it cause he will most likely be gone for a week or two at a time. I need that time to myself so that I can get my peace and quiet then I only have to put up with him for like a week or two a month. That’s a bit more tolerable then every fucking day. Let’s just hope his back doesn’t get him kicked out cause he has a bad back and his. Urdu he has staying here is a cocky newb so who knows if hl make the cut but he sure as hell ain’t staying here if adam makes the cut and not him. I have to drive 6 hours though to drop them off on Monday so that I can have the truck while there gone. I need to sheet up for a car ASAP so that I don’t have to drive 6 hours every time to drop them off and pick them up so that I can have the truck while there gone cause it would literaly just be sitting at the heli pad til till they got back cause there are taking a helicopter to camp. If I get a car they can just fucijng drive there themselves in the truck and leave it at the heli pad but I need a car so I have my independence so I’m gonna be setting up a car fund so I can get one ASAO. also mango went into heat two days ago so I REALLY need to save up and get her fixed in January cause I haven’t gotten hardly any sleep in the last two days and don’t get any when she’s heat cause she meows all night long. I might even have to go sleep in the Rey k with her so they can sleep and be all fresh and good for orientation and the Sunday night when i have to drive them Monday morning. I have to leave at 2 AM to take them. But it’s -1/33 degree out and 69/43 mile winds outside so it’s to cold for me to stay out there with her but If I have to I will cause I don’t want them not being 100% for orientation and for Monday cause I want them to get this job so I get have my peace and quiet. I need to get her fixed ASAP so I don’t have to deal with her going into heat all the god damn time. I’ve been so fucking depressed
2022-12-10 06:15:43 +0000 UTC View PostI hope you never forget me , even after all this time ❤️
I hope you never forget me , even after all this time ❤️
2022-12-07 09:13:57 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m sorry I had a mental break down yesterday and today sinc..
I’m sorry I had a mental break down yesterday and today since starting my upped dose. I almost got admitted into a psychiatric ward becuase I thought I was literally going to off myself today and I was really fucking scared. I wen to the pharmacy and talked to the pharmacist and he saw how fucking nuts I was and advised to STOP taking the 150 mg dose anymore and go back down to my 75 mg and that my brain should go back to how I felt on my lower dose because I felt great on my lower dose but still had a bit of anxiety but I think I needed to give my lower dose longer to get the full effects. Im now back on my lower dose and starting to feel way better and more sane. Man this shit was so fucking scary. All i wanted was to feel netter and I just felt way worse and literally may not been still with you guys bad I kept taking the higher dose. I knew IMMEDIATELY that I needed to do something about this. So Thursday I’m going to the walk in and getting this taken addressed and documented. Thanks for sticking by my side everyone ❤️.
2022-12-07 02:33:03 +0000 UTC View PostWho wants a little e-goth in their stocking for Christmas???
Who wants a little e-goth in their stocking for Christmas???
2022-12-03 16:23:02 +0000 UTC View PostUpdate - had my two week followup at the doctors on Thursday..
Update - had my two week followup at the doctors on Thursday. He upped my dose to 150 for my meds got bloood work to check my thyroid which came back fine but then I also got my booster while I was there and had a bad reaction to it and ended up blacking out in the middle of the night and fainting in my room which was super scary and then got some swollen lymph nodes under my armpit from my Booster . I think I’m doing better now though. Still have swollen nodes
2022-12-03 16:20:47 +0000 UTC View Post
Happy last day of NNN! I bet you all failed didn’t you 😉
Happy last day of NNN! I bet you all failed didn’t you 😉
2022-11-30 19:17:39 +0000 UTC View PostHow about you come over here and give this pussy some attent..
How about you come over here and give this pussy some attention ?
2022-11-30 07:52:59 +0000 UTC View PostWould you like a taste ? This pussy has been neglected
Would you like a taste ? This pussy has been neglected
2022-11-30 07:52:14 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m back! Sorry for my time away. I really needed it. It’s b..
I’m back! Sorry for my time away. I really needed it. It’s been a tough time for me since starting my meds and at the same time I also quit weed COLD TURKEY after 15 years of smoking so that was a episode and a half of withdrawals and side effects from my meds. My guts hated me. Had so much happen. I’ve been 13 days weed free and 13 days on my meds. All the symptoms have finally subsided i think other then the excessive gas I still have. I’m going to follow up with the doctor on Thursday to see how I’m doing. I promise I won’t be taking anymore time away like this anymore. I’m so happy to have my head on straight now. Weed literally ruined my life and I didn’t know how badly it affected me until I quit it. And after getting on antidepressants I feel alot more better mentally! Thank you everyone who has stayed during my time away. I understand a lot may have left and I completely understand why. I hope that I can regain some of you back in the future that have left and if not, I apologize and appreciate the time you have spent here. I’m very excited to be making better choices and taking care of my mental health the best that I can in my situation. Like I said, I won’t be having anymore absent days like this anymore, I promise you that! I have a lot of making up to do. I hope you can stick around and and the year with me and go into the new year with a more level headed Gracie !
2022-11-30 07:50:01 +0000 UTC View PostI’m sorry I was going to be back a few days ago but home has..
I’m sorry I was going to be back a few days ago but home hasn’t been the best 😣 He isn’t letting me use the truck next week to go see the doctor to follow up with my medication to see if I need to up my dose or refil my prescription. He got mad at me for even asking to use the truck on Thursday. He said that it’s fucking Saturday and said why the Fuck do I want to know and I said I told you, cause I need to see the doctor and he said he doesn’t fucking care and I’ll see the doctor whenever I see the doctor. I haven’t even been allowed to use the truck to go in to get blôod work to see if I have problems with my thyroid. He made me cancel my appointment last month to get my cat fixed Becuase he said him buying a wood chipper is more important and he won’t let me use the truck anyways to take her to get her fixed. He doesn’t want me working on my mental health. He said I don’t need to take medication and that I’m fine. He’s mad that I don’t fuck him when I wonder fucking why I don’t fucking him ?! He literaly gets everything from me except that and that’s what he bitches about. He told me I had to quit being a dog sitter cause he won’t look after the dog and cat when I’m gone but dog sitting was my only escape away from my house and now he’s taken that away from me. All I wanted to do was work on my mental health so I could feel better and he isn’t letting me. I might have to just stop taking my meds till I can have the means to be able to go see the doctor without stress of not knowing if I can use the truck and not have to take a an hour bus ride there and back when I could easily drive there. I need to get my own car as soon a possible but it’s impossible becuase something always comes up and I pay for everything and can never save save enough to put away towards one. I need to try and save up a few grand so I can get a car and then save up to get mango fixed when I have a car to take her. I’m just not doing very well mentally. I’ve been dealing with all my side effects that he claims i shouldn’t have like he acts like he’s a doctor. Which are just normal side effects that the paper states but of course he says he’s always right. I’ve been super gassy and fighting in my sleep and waking up soaking wet in sweat. I really wish I had more support at home. My life is to exhausting. So many days I just want to give up.
2022-11-27 05:03:31 +0000 UTC View PostI wanna wish everyone here that lives in America Happy Thank..
I wanna wish everyone here that lives in America Happy Thanksgiving. I have taken a few days off since I came back from Jamie’s just to kinda get my bearings back and make sure my dog was OK and make sure my cat was OK and I’ve just been kind of finishing up the side effects that I’m getting from my medication. I can say that I made the right choice in quitting weed and starting medication because I do feel a lot better than I did a week ago and things can only get better from here. Unfortunately I still have to deal with my toxic home life but at least it will hopefully be a little bit more easier to tolerate being on medication now, I do have a little bit of cleaning still left to do and I haven’t unpacked my stuff yet so I will finish that up and I will be back tomorrow full-time posting. I wish you all a very safe and happy Thanksgiving and I appreciate each and every one of you for being here . I will be sending out a PPV of my newest video I made last month that I haven’t sent out yet. I’m going to send out on December 1 so keep an eye out for that because I am going to be saving up now to get mango fixed. It is very important for me to get that taken care of it’s gonna cost me $800 to get her fixed and I really don’t wanna have to go through another heat cycle because that is a week long of head throbbing pain and I would love to just get it taken care of as soon as possible so any video purchases and tips will all be going towards me saving up to get mango fixed as soon as possible . The second thing I’m gonna work on saving up for is getting myself my own vehicle because I literally am stranded at home now all the time and the reason why I’m being told that I can’t go to Jamie‘s anymore is because Adam can’t take care of Charlie when I’m not at home but if I had my own vehicle when I’m gone, I would be able to come back home every day and check on my dog and cat because Adam always has a truck and I can’t have it when he’s working. I’m basically told that I’m not allowed to leave the house anymore so my biggest things I need to save up for as soon as possible is getting myself a little vehicle for myself and getting mango fixed and I’m pretty sure I can make that possible now that I’m working on my mental health and medicated that I quit smoking weed and I just want to get better unfortunately somethings I can’t get rid of as much as I want to but I’m glad to have all the support from you guys here and I don’t know what I would do without you guys you treat me so much better than people do in real life and I want you guys to know that you mean everything to me❤️
2022-11-24 22:49:52 +0000 UTC View PostDo any plumbers follow me on here I have a question ! How..
Do any plumbers follow me on here I have a question ! How do you know if your anode in your hot water tank need replacing? Do al hot water tanks have anodes? I have well water and my water comes out yellow from the taps/toilet etc. I have hard water build up and get metallic smell in my sink when I wash any metal dishes Feel free to send me a DM ! Thanks in advance !
2022-11-21 21:39:48 +0000 UTC View PostGoing home today to be with my pup and kitty. I was told tha..
Going home today to be with my pup and kitty. I was told that she’s okay so far I’m thinking that she’ll be okay then if it’s been 2 days already but I’ll know better when I’m home . Sorry that I haven’t been posting as much. My mind hasn’t been really functioning properly due to starting my new meds and the scare from my dog but once I get home, I’m gonna be back to my regular posting!
2022-11-21 20:20:56 +0000 UTC View PostCan I sit on top of you like this ?
Can I sit on top of you like this ?
2022-11-21 08:00:35 +0000 UTC View PostPear so juicy, it’s like a pussy 🍐
Pear so juicy, it’s like a pussy 🍐
2022-11-21 04:50:44 +0000 UTC View PostJamie informed me that her daughter will be coming home tomo..
Jamie informed me that her daughter will be coming home tomorrow evening so I’m just gonna be going home tomorrow at 4:30 PM. Going home a day early sucks and it sucks that I’m never gonna be able to come to Jamie’s again but I’m happy that I can go check on my dog a day sooner.
2022-11-21 03:09:05 +0000 UTC View PostCharlie update 🐕 - she poôped a lot of 🩸 this morning. Would..
Charlie update 🐕 - she poôped a lot of 🩸 this morning. Wouldn’t eat. But then ate after a while. She did play a little outside. And then poôped a second time but no 🩸 the second time. Been giving her wet food to keep her tummy all lubed up and I’m being told “so far so good” praying the news keeps getting better
2022-11-21 00:35:37 +0000 UTC View Post