‼️ So my videos are getting deleted because of my previous failure to tag so if you purchased a video that has been deleted, please message me and I’ll resend it with the appropriate tagged collaborator. Sorry about this — I wish they would have just gave me a notice and let me tag them, instead of just straight up deleting but it is what it is... ‼️
➡️ If you would like to support me, a big way you can do that is by ordering a Cock Rating Narrative — it’s my favorite custom to do, you would get four videos 6-7 min in length which includes my very unique perspective on the Cock Rating genre. It’s $65; I guarantee it’s worth it. 🥰 ⬅️
💘 If you want to support me further, feel free to purchase anything within your price range on my Amazon wishlist, anything helps, even the smallest of donations go a long way: https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/2UQIZO32C424P?ref_=wl_share
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➡️ If you want to support me, please consider getting my Cock Rating Narrative which has a relatively quick turnaround time; it includes four videos. They are all roughly 6-7 min in length which includes a direct and honest detailed cock rating — probably the best you’ll ever receive on this site, tbh. Right now, I’m doing it for $50. Tip & send several pictures or videos, and I’ll get started ⬅️
I sent out a PPV bundle a couple days ago featuring Mouchette (GGB BBC) — planning more future collaborations with her soon once I get my tests back. I have other collaborations to edit which include my first cream pie. If you want the PPV bundle which includes 4 videos (the GGB itself is 25 min) and the price is $40 so feel free to tip if you want to see that and other BBC content. Video Editing is a slog for me so that’s why it sometimes takes forever on my end so I apologize but I’m always seeking new creators to collaborate with so feel free to recommend who you’d like to see or introduce us directly.
I know from these pictures it probably doesn’t look like it but I felt so severely bloated here, it was painful :,( I’m always working on my digestion, fixing my diet, drinking more water, hoping to see some improvements — my stomach problems cause both body image issues and physical pain, so it’s difficult on me, but I’m working on it.
🦋 Another way to support me is by getting me something from my Amazon wish list — there’s gifts of various price ranges so anything within your price range and budget is still deeply appreciated by me: https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/2UQIZO32C424P?ref_=wl_share
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Taxes season has been killer to me, so tips are never expected but always appreciated so a special thank you for those who tip. Thank you for those who also like my posts. Remember, if you can’t renew for any reason, don’t hesitate to message me and we can work something out. I can always offer you a discount if you’re struggling or going through rough times. I know exactly what you’re feeling so I get it.
🌟 will be sending out collab soon! 🌟
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❤️ Tip $10 if you want me to take and post more 🎉
I’m more active in messaging now that I’ve got some stuff figured out and tax season is ending.
Did a collab with @toxictyrone and @heather.heaven who are one of the most awesome artistic power couples I’ve had the pleasure of working with. Hopefully more to come! Here’s a little teasers of some of our work together.
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I like doing the cock rating narratives for the best, most original honest cock rating if your life
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🥰 Tip $25 if you have videography or adult content experience and want to collab
I’m now in a better space where I can actively read and respond to messages so if I’m just getting back to you now, I apologize. If anyone has ADHD knows, it’s just so hard to get down to doing things you need to do and you feel overwhelmed so easily from the simplest of tasks, and once you put something off for so long, it’s just hard sitting down and getting started again because you see all the stuff piling up and it feels insurmountable.
Getting customs done this week. Thank you for your patience. Bump your messages if I haven’t responded yet and I’ll get to it
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🌟 Tip $10 if you want another collab with Mouchette 😍
I want to make plans to collab with Mouchette and other creators in the future. If you have any recommendations, feel free to send them away or have them reach out to me. Thinking about potential gang bangs and big cocks for the near future 😊
Please continue to bump messages. If waiting for a custom, I’m just in the editing process. Thank you again.
❤️ Tip $5 if you enjoy Hysterical literature like this
🌟 Tip $10 if you would like to recommend a book for me to read 🥰
Please bump messages. Unfortunately my medication is undergoing some kind of shortage which is affecting me. Hoping that this all works out in the end.
I hope the renewal reward video went through. I will be sending a lot more of them from now on, since I’m able to have sex regularly with someone I feel extra comfy with.
💕 Tip $5 if you like the selfie outtakes like these. Basically the pictures I didn’t really like at first but somehow grew on men
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Here’s a free video for you all! Will do be doing some GGB collabs later this week 😍 bump your messages please
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I have a collab tomorrow! Looking for female collbs in the New Jersey / Philadelphia area 💕
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Much appreciated for anyone who gets me anything from my wishlist:
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If you want to get to know me more:
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❤️ Tip $5 if you like this new lingerie I got
🌟 Tip $10 if you enjoy the new mirror I got !
Today is day one of me working on my diet and improving my eating habits. Not because I think I’m fat but for other reasons, but I’m hoping I won’t be suffering with my stomach pains for my whole life 🙃
❤️ Tip $5 if you’re glad I’m here today and appreciate me
🥰 Tip $10 if you want to care about my well being and want to support me
Yes, I’m trying to step up my photo and video game, so I hope you keep up with me on this adventure as I actively try to improve and become better at what I do. I regularly have huge discount and bundle sales.
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Here’s a more in depth write up on how I started my Onlyfans and how it changed my life: Before I started my OnlyFans in August, I was in a very dark place. I’ve gotten to the point where I was actually prepared to shoot myself in the head and end it all. Let me make this clear: this was not mere suicide ideation or just thinking about it. I was actively taking steps to purchasing a hand gun and mentally preparing myself for finally pulling the trigger.
Most people are confused initially as to why I would resort to this brutal course of action for myself. For what? Because I can’t find work?
I don’t think people understand the full gravity of my situation. I spent most of my twenties without work, no job experience to spice up my resume, no prior managers to vouch for my work ethic. For someone in their early twenties, this is fine as you will gain experience in this period of your life but for someone who is leaving this stage and have zero work experience to show for it, the situation is a bit different.
Because of my lack of work experience, I couldn’t even qualify for unemployment or most stimulus checks. On paper, my resume and cover letters were fine, as I had several of my more professional friends proofread them to perfection. The problem was that most companies either ghost or straight out reject me after the in person interview.
Being on the Autistic Spectrum, I recognized this as a huge problem early on; at this point, it wasn’t even my discomfort with eye contact as I’ve learned to “fake it” by looking between the person’s eyes instead of making direct eye contact, but that my behavior and mannerisms were out right “off putting” to many, as I appeared perpetually worried or anxious, had vocal and motor tics beyond my control, and overall, just didn’t fit the mold of what the company was looking for.
For years, I was let down constantly by countless job rejection e-mails, giving one excuse after another about why I wouldn’t make a good fit for their company. I had full faith in my ability to do the job and do it well, but no company wanted to give me a chance and train me.
I applied to a variety of positions, starting with academia, retail, and then service work. I pursued several freelance positions with predatory employers who were highly exploitative, underpaying me while making me to work overtime. All while they degrade me and my work, expecting me to accept this horrible treatment and toxic work environment simply because at least I was getting paid.
The main reason for me feeling utterly demoralized from having no source of income for how many years is the fact that my parents were still paying for everything (rent, food, necessities, etc) as I was approaching 30. My parents are both 70, reaching to the point of retirement (my dad is on Dialysis and my mom is unemployed while taking care of my dad). I honestly wanted to ease the financial burden from my family who has graciously taken care of me all these years.
I felt like I was a heavy weight bringing down everyone around me because of my inability to support myself. I felt I lacked a future because I had no source of income and essentially no savings. I hated the fact that my bank statement was constantly thrown into the negatives. I was put in the position where I would have to beg friends or strangers on the internet to borrow money to prevent me from paying over draft fees. For someone like me who hates asking people for things, despises pity, relying on people for utter necessities, this was particularly painful for me to do.
It got to the point where I was this close to just buying scratch offs and just hoping I get lucky and make it big, because all the hard work I was putting into finding work was bearing no fruits in helping me gain employment. I felt that scratch offs were becoming a better investment; all the effort I was putting into finding work seemed to be a big waste of my time.
For years, I felt truly felt hopeless about my situation. I kept telling myself if it doesn’t get better by this time, then I’m finally done. I can’t handle living life as a pathetic waste leeching off my parents. I don’t remember what exactly made me decide to finally try Onlyfans but it was my last option of finding a source of income.
Initially, I was very hesitant about starting an Of because I felt it would debase my character but at that point, begging for money and just living in poverty was doing that as well, so at that point, I felt my character has already been debased beyond recognition simply by my standard of living.
Onlyfans has definitely changed my life for the better, it made it possible for me to pay rent for the first time for a full year, be able to actually live like a normal person, not having to check my bank statement every time I buy something in fear of my card being declined.
🌟 Tip $5 if you enjoy the nice lighting in these
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If you want to spoil me, I deeply appreciate any contributions that can be made:
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Join my discord server! Not sure if you can tell but I worked hard in setting it up, designing the graphic panels, fixing up the categories so I hope some of you join to appreciate:
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❤️ Tip $5 if you want me to be your Valentine
💘 Tip $25 if you live in NYC and want to collab. My preference in content creation is BBC.
I know some of you are alone today and that’s perfectly fine. I’ve been alone on Valentine’s Day for the last several years. Do something good for yourself because you’re worth it. 🥰
I got a whole lot of equipment and some BBC collabs coming up with a few cool creators :) please recommend music I can put in the background of my videos. My camera is finished from being repaired but I have to wait till my parents mail it which who knows how long that will take. I’m hoping with two cameras we can get multiple angles :)
💕 Tip $5 if you think I have a cute booty
🔥 Tip $10 if you want to spank it
⭐️ Tip $20 if you want to help out with all the equipment I’ve invested in 🥺
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💕 Tip $5 if you liked my BBC BGG collab
❤️ Tip $10 if you want to see me do more of them
Only for today I am offering a discount on my cock rating narrative which includes four videos for only $50 (regular price is $65). It will be on my fancy camera with my fancy new mic. Send a picture and a tip and I’ll get started
My menu is: katishii.com/menu
Working on customs. My severe ADHD makes it so difficult to get things done but I’m trying my hardest and will always try to improve quality and production quality to make it worth your while.
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♥️ Tip $5 if you like these artsy nudes
♣️ Tip $10 if you’re a photographer and want to take pictures of me :)
I got a camera stabilizer so I hope more regular better quality sex tapes on the way. Looking for more BBC for content tho 👀
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❤️ Tip $10 if you want more collabs
Im looking to getting a camera stabilizer so I can film more and better content. All donations and contributions are appreciated. Working more on customs this week and will add more to it, make it longer and worth your while. Thank you for your patience. I’m physically in pain from this condition I have and am hoping that it improves one day…
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Will be editing the video tonight. If you messaged me or sent me an introduction and I haven’t responded please bump your messages because Onlyfans makes it super hard to find messages. I was planning to respond but couldn’t at the time I read it, and now I can’t find the messages :/
Happy New Year’s Eve. What are your new year resolutions and if you do not make them, why not? Thank you for helping make my years better than before. The financial stability has helped my family a lot and improved my confidence in every aspect of life.
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💕 Tip $20 if you want to contribute to more collabs
🌟 Tip $5 if you like these types of videos
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💜 Tip $20 if you want to contribute to some cute sexy lingerie
🌸 Tip $50 to help fund future collabs 😇 if you want more collabs with people like Christy Love or Mouchette, you can help with travel cost. Tips $100 get a custom from the collab
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❤️ Tip $20 to wish me a special merry Christmas 🎄
Merry Christmas to those who celebrate. I know holidays may be a very difficult time for some of you who do not have the luxury of having either time off or loved ones to spend it with. I hope you can get through it alright. I’m alone too so if you need to chat.
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I go hard in the dressing room. Visiting cali soon so if anyone’s there and wants to chill / collab. Also was very sick past few days unfortunately but am feeling a lot better …. If you’re waiting for a custom send like a $1 tip so it will be at the top of my inbox
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😇 Tip $20 if you want me to buy cute lingerie
Which lingerie set do you like better on me? Blue or pink?
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🔥 Tip $10 if you like these dressing room photos and can’t wait to see the videos I took 😉
🌹 Tip $20 + if you want to contribute to helping me buy more ❤️
🌟 Tip $5 if you like the beautiful natural lighting in these photos
🌼 Tip $10 if you appreciate my artistic photos 🥰
Today I had a scare, woke up to my TikTok account being banned but luckily I appealed and got it back. Will have to make more to make backups because who knows what will happen. The new account is aspieasian. I constantly feel so demotivated; it’s a real problem but I’ll continue trying my best.
Here’s my writing about depression and all that :
My depression:
If I were to name a quality about myself that I enjoy or what I feel makes me mildly distinctive would be my intellect. So much so to the point where my personhood is reduced wholly to it. My value as a human being is tied to being “intelligent”. Events that put that characteristic into question such as struggling in Latin class will devastate me. It’s similar to Hal’s breakdown in the end of 2001: A Space Odyssey where his err-less perfection as a computer completely defined him.
Throughout the film, Hal emphasizes this fact about himself to the crew members in mostly condescending snide remarks here and there. However, He made an error that had serious repercussions; it seems to be the case that Hal is not the perfect super computer he parades himself out to be. His idea of himself as accurate on all accounts would be profoundly contradicted and that’s a hard pill to swallow. To admit this error would be to him, essentially, a loss of identity, a loss of self-hood.
It brings us back to the question of the self and what it consists of, whether it be based on physical bearings or neurological. Is there a true core self, deeply rooted in our physical being or are we merely fragments of events, emotions, randomly accumulated experiences with no real coherence (or proximate objectivity), only to be constructed into a somewhat believable narrative in retrospect by said individual (to themselves, at least). What are we but patterns of behavior or routine mental states?
What it feels to desire death: I’ve had happy experiences, moments that made me glad to be alive, but those are only moments, tiny slices of time that fade as time continues to reach forward. The immense suffering that is felt by me on a daily basis is unbearable. There are no moments of bliss that makes any of this worth-while. Upon reflecting on my own future, I don’t see anything — pitch blackness. The last couple of days I’ve stayed up late at night remembering (or technically not remembering but waking up with this lack of recollection) how there is no pain when your heart stops — you’re dead u n c o n s c I o u s, within minutes your brain will go along with it and it’s all over. A state of nothingness or lack of consciousness is much better than the feelings of misery and alienation that I am f o r c e d to trudge through.
I sometimes feel like I’m trapped in a tall glass tower, seemingly extending into the heavens or whatever is purportedly up there. There’s no escape from this tower of glass. Once in a while someone will throw down a rope, but it’s either too short for me to reach or the rope appears to be long enough for me to finally anticipate escape, but upon my first grasp, it quickly unravels into vapor, as if there was no rope in the first place and it was simply a cruel mirage of the mind. In this glass tower — I can watch the world around me — people going forward in their lives with some feeling of purpose and fulfillment. Feelings that are much too foreign to me because my range of movement is restricted to this glass tower. I can only move within the confines of this space, I can’t go outside of it. All I can do is break out of this tower, with its sharp glass pieces splintering toward me, and I will no longer be trapped.
Depression is a mental space, it’s a distorted mirror, it fogs your judgement and perception with smarting pangs of hopelessness. You begin to feel you were never meant to be happy, not even happy, you were simply never meant to be not miserable. I stopped striving for happiness as a goal once I realized how unattainable it was. I feel so much sadness for the implacable burden I am to everyone around me. People may view a suicidal person as selfish but in reality, they view themselves as relieving the world of a burden. The weight of depression progressively becomes heavier, I don’t want to ask for help because the depression is mine, no one else’s. It’s no one’s responsibility to help me.
