This year was the most difficult in my life. I went through two big crises and I got through them. I decided not to give up. I decided to live. I started therapy and continue it. I stop antidepressants and other pills. I have returned to regular training with my coach I continue to work on myself and i want to be the best version of myself
I think I can be proud of myself
What do you think?
On this International Women's Day I did not receive a single bouquet. But I decided to please myself. I went to a flower shop on my street near my house. And there were tulips. The tulips of my dreams that I couldn't afford to buy. So I gave myself a beautiful single rose. On this day I deserve a rose
On the way home, I decided to stop by my favorite clothing store. And I really liked this dress, I think I deserve it but I can't afford to buy it. Maybe you want to help me? Maybe do you think I deserve it?
I was in 4 different stores and found my book ππ
If you've ever felt like there are things you can't say, or can't talk about, or felt things that you're not sure anyone else has ever felt before, then I know you. And I know you probably don't believe me, but that's ok. This is what I know:
You don't talk as much as you should. Or sometimes you do but it's not everything you want to say. Or you talk but talking is a way to hide how you're really feeling. Sometimes, it's hard for you to say, "This is beautiful," when no one else can see what you see. Or, "Here, this is where it hurts, this is where the pain is." Because the scar is invisible.
And yet, some part of you knows that the truth about everything you cannot say, is that those words only hurt because you're keeping them in.
Because you're not saying them.
They only hurt until the person who needs to hear them, hears them.
I don't want to hurt anymore, and I don't think
* you want to either.
In Here, is everything we haven't been able to say.
Let me know if there's more.
-pleasefindthis
when I'm sad I always want to buy new books or candles. How do you like my outfit for mini shopping?
Leave me a tip under this post if you want to support my mental health by buying a book or a candle πβ€οΈπ
A couple of days ago, my gym noticed that something was wrong with me. My smile was gone and happiness in my eyes. And now I think I need to find a new gym. I just want to turn on the "silence" mood. I just want to be myself. I want to be sad when I'm sad. I want to cry when I want to cry. And not smile and pretend that everything is fine. My social life dropped to 0. Just me and my dogs. How much can you let yourself be sad? And is it normal to be so sad and feel sorry for yourself?
2023
Happy New Year
I did not understand what was happening to me this year, I did not want to celebrate and have fun at all. And I have a lot of unanswered messages and calls. This year I became 100% antisocial and I canβt say that Iβm sad or I have depression again, I just want to be alone and quiet. What do you feel this year?